BACK STABBERS

There are two things I hate in life...liars and back stabbers........okay not hate but don't like. I don't like people who can tell me one thing in front of me and talk other things at the back of me. I prefer if you don't like me to tell me straight to the face or better still correct me. Or if you really don't like me, don't force other people to not like me. I don't like it. I prefer for other people to make judgements about me rather than you make judgements and tell others about me.

H is a foreign friend whom I got to know from my mutual friends. At first, I heard many sob stories about her, how she is treated poorly by other people. So being a good friend I tried to support her in many ways. A lot of times my supervisor would criticize her and I would just tell my sv to just be patient with her. Many a times I feel pity for her and I always ask her how she is doing etc. Then my perception of her started to change when she first had a fallin out with 2 of my friends. At first it was a small matter but somehow she made it into a very big issue. Ever since then, I've become wary of her. Just a few weeks ago before I left campus, she had another fallin out with another 2 (A & B) of my friends. And this time, I was shocked that she did the same thing as like the first time. A & B are at first wanting to patch things up until they found her blog. And in her blog she wrote many malicious things about both of them, while she maintains that she is innnocent and pitiful to be treated like that. I also got shock at the things she wrote and told A & B to just forget her and move on. Today A told me that she wrote things about me as well and actually for a long time they have talked about it. When I read, I was shock. There she wrote how I was 2 face. How I betrayed her and critisize her and other people to my supervisor just so that I can get ahead. Hello? for wat? if you can't take your own weaknesses don't criticize others about their weaknesses. My goodness.....actually What the fuck man? I mean woman? Who are you so great to say such things. Now it's becoming clear why some people look at me one kind it's because she has been spreading rumours about me.......I really regret helping her and also regret tyring to patch things up for her and her friends. You know what H if you are reading this. SCREW YOU!!!

RASA and HELLO

My my I'm sorry guys for not updating. THe last two months was hectic with trying to finish my thesis so that I can graduate (which btw I'm still in LIMBO thanks to my ex boss). FYI officially I have not graduated yet as I haven't VIVA and haven't passed up my final draft to IPS. But I have until OCtober to do that so I'm good haha.

Currently, I'm working in Rasa Water Treatment Plant which is a potable water treatment plant situated in the jungles of Selangor. I'm the new Production Engineer meaning I'm suppose to be in charge of the daily production of water in the company. So far after working 3 days, I kinda love my job although there is much to learn. My boss is En Wakil.......super nice boss. One thing, he is a very patient man and very very pious but open man. He used to be the Production Engineer here before becoming the Plant Manager. I admire his wit and determination with his job here. It's always pleasing to see him cause I seldom (or maybe I haven't seen yet) his angry side. Right now my job is to make sure my men are doing their job. Yes I have 28 people to oversee. Technically only 4 as the 4 will help me see the rest. But as a department head I must be strict and have to know what's up. So far I have a lot of assignments and frankly speakign can feel the working life dee la........

More post ya and pics.........

BETRAYED

Hmm today did something which I felt so guilty about. I betrayed someone's trust. That person has trusted me to be a good senior but I've done something which I know this person would have a hard time to trust me again. I hope this person can look beyond what happened. I didn't mean for it to happen and didn't mean to do it (if I can remember what I did). The truth is I know it sucks being betrayed especially to someone whom look up to you.

I remember a few years back, I was heart broken when I found out my best friend back stabbed me. Just to win some hearts, he was willing to talk bad about me and told lies. He even let out a big secret and I almost got into trouble for it. Hmm I stil rememeber the hurt and the pain he caused. In camp cameron, I talked to the speaker about this issue and he said that I need to confront him and talk to him about it. I said how can I? but he said it is important to do so. So after many years of not talking to him I decided to ring him up and we met for yam cha. After yam cha we talked and I expressed my hurt. He said he didn't mean it to and that he didn't feel well after tat. After much prayer, I decided to forgive him. I still remember the hug he gave me and I can remember we both teared up. Now I'm still a good friend with him and still trust him with my life.

To that person I betrayed, I'm so sorry. I dunno how it happen or why it happen. I just know I'm sorry about it..........hope you can forgive me and we can move on......

THE COLD WITHIN

This poem was written by James Patrick Kinney. It spoke a lot to me when I first heard it (Eric can by heart it) and when I read it again, it brings chills......

The Cold Within
Six humans trapped by happenstance
In dark and bitter cold
Each possessed a stick of wood--
Or so the story's told.

Their dying fire in need of logs,
But the first one held hers back,
For, of the faces around the fire,
She noticed one was black.

The next one looked cross the way
Saw one not of his church,
And could not bring himself to give
The fire his stick of birch.

The third one sat in tattered clothes
He gave his coat a hitch,
Why should his log be put to use
To warm the idle rich?

The rich man just sat back and thought
Of wealth he had in store,
And keeping all that he had earned
From the lazy, shiftless poor.

The black man's face bespoke revenge
As the fire passed from his sight,
For he saw in his stick of wood
A chance to spite the white.

And the last man of this forlorn group
Did nought except for gain,
Giving just to those who gave
Was how he played the game,

Their sticks held tight in death's stilled hands
Was proof enough of sin;
They did not die from cold without--
They died from cold within.

This poem reminds me of why I do what I do....people ask me, what so much money to spend me ah? well the money I have is from God, and He blessed me with it, but I believe He blessed me because He wans me to bless others. Let's not all die from the cold within

FORGIVE AND FORGET

Hmm something to blog about after lunch. A few days ago, our faculty organised an anniversary dinner to celebrate 15 years of it's existence. Of course when there's a faculty event, we the post grad students sure get caught in a lot of drama. First we were forced to go for the dinner. Not only that we were asked to pay for our dinner and not only that, we were forced to do so much work. Well who else would do such things to us, of course our beloved D......haha I can't say too much, I might get sued.

Oh well, if you know who our D is to us, you have to remember our history with him. He's the most ungrateful and selfish guy I've ever met. Not only that, He's always right! and we cannot argue with him. On the dinner itself, there was a lucky draw. And lo and behold none of the students won anything. You will say, well aren't you unlucky? but then it's obvious that our tickets were taken out earlier and was not part of the lucky draw (statistically we should have at least 1 or 2 winners). Anyway I guess it was D's way of getting us back for making him mad about asking for a cheaper dinner. Of course we were pissed off, how not to? Of course my weekend was spoilt by him. We were cursing him and gossiping about him and just complaining about him. But you know what? It hit me last nite, that we are no better from him if we do those things. I think for me, he won by just hurting our feelings. I decided hey you know what, i liked the event. I got to help kids to understand what I'm studying. I got to meet some old seniors and catch up. I got a new t shirt to wear............you see it's not all that bad.

I was sharing this to my friends a few minutes ago. At first they think I'm crazy but after explaning to them, they somehow had a "Ah-Ha" in their head and we were talking about forgiving someone and forgetting it. Well in my humble opinion. I think forgiving someone is easy, forgetting what that person has done to you is another matter. You know after all these years, I still harbour a certain hatred to those people in church who made fun of me. But I'm suppose to forgive them..HOW? hahaha.....not easy lor....but I always make this verse remind me

Be ye KIND to one another, tender LOVING, FORGIVING one another, even as God in Christ has FORGIVEN you....Ephesians 4:32

Christ has forgiven me....and I'm even worst.......

Something to reflect on right?

MALAYSIANS?

I was thinking about being racist.......and sometimes I'm sad being Chinese. Here's two scenario

Scenario 1

EB is my good friend and also an Indian. He is like my mentor la in the LaSallian movement. Both of us were running a camp this year and were running errands in the town to get supplies for camp. We stopped by a Chinese owned sundry shop to get some of the stuffs. EB wanted to fix his shoes so he asked me to shop first. So I entered the shop first. Now the taukeh so (auntie boss) was so happy to see me and asked what I needed. So I started off with number 1 and so forth. About 5 mins later, EB entered and stood beside me. Then he remembered something which was not in the list. Some simple brown paper which we use to wrip gifts. So he asked the auntie nicely for it. The auntie gave him a stare and said "Don't kacau me, I'm very busy and the brown paper very hard to take" Hmm then I turned to EB and just started talking. When the auntie realise that I was with him. She suddenly said, "You with him?" I said yes and then she turned back and walked a few steps and then walah just took out 1 whole roll of brown paper. Hard to get? hmmm.........oh well......obviously she saw EB differently

Scenario 2

Went shopping with some coursemates. I needed to get a gift so a few of the girls decided to help me. Now my coursemates are a mix. In gang got Chinese and also Malays. We hang out almost all the time. Okay back to my story. We went round the whole shopping complex to find that perfect gift. I stopped at one shop looking at the gift and my other 2 friends went ahead to another shop. One of them actually saw a nice gift and called me. I said ok ok coming. As I approached the shop, the Chinese lady was shocked to see me as the friend. She asked me in Mandarin, "You are with them?". I said yah.......and she gave me a very weird look. Hmm.....

Pretty sad ain't it........

WOUNDED HEALER

Recently, I'm recovering from all the bruises and scracthes I have on my spirit. It hasn't been the best of weeks but I'm still moving on. I can see that my temper has shorten and I'm also getting irritated easily by people's remark. I've become too sensitive to many things now. Some people say somethings and then ouches it hurts. I guess the wounds are deep this time and it's taking time. What happened?

Well I can tell you that it's the lack of attention. Hah? Seriously it is. Not many people know that I struggle a lot every day and not many people see that I am also human, needs comforting and assurance. Sounds selfish right? but not when you yourself are doing it for people. Nope not asking that you give me back what I give you, but sometimes it hurts that not many people care about what you are going through. Today during the sermon, I remembered something I learnt in Camp Cameron. We are all wounded healers. All of us. We need to know that as much as we want people to help soothe our hurt, we need to soothe others as well. We cannot be lone rangers and we cannot even just think that our mission is the greatest mission. All of us are wounded healers, made equally in Christ.

At the moment, my wounds are deep and not only that, some people are rubbing salt into it. Annette said in camp that I'll be experiencing things that I have not experienced before. I guess this is it.

NEW BREATH, NEW SHOWERS

That's the name I gave for my seed in family camp this year. The Lord has definitely given me some new breath and also showered me with new blessings. The family camp this year was great. I got to meet a lot of the juniors and got close to some seniors. I'm glad that I went this year and haha also my last time attending camps like this.

I have my reasons for choosing that name for my seed. New breath meaning I needed fresh anointing from the Lord. I was getting tired physically and spiritually. From my previous post, you can see how angry I am with the world, the Lord and with the CF. People don't care anymore. The weekend at home in Ipoh prove to be a resting of the body. I was physically and mentally recharged. The weekend at camp was different. My spirit was restored. Mind you it's still in repairing state and it's vulnerable. New showers was because of what Annette (speaker) said to me.....there are new dews in your life Aaron! Meaning new blessings and new challenges ahead which means exciting times are ahead.

"I HAVE NEVER LEFT YOU!"

A phrase that I will treasure..............

GROWING UP

A little while ago, a junior of mine said........"We need to start growing up"....wow struck me hard....

Actually for a few weeks, have been feeling rather down lately. My whole spiritual life is in a mess. Haven't been reading the bible or spending quiet time regularly. I just have no more heart to do it. One of the reasons is I feel so lonely in campus and that I don't have much friends. You might say your juniors le? Well exactly they are my juniors. I'm also final year with them, but I don't feel final year with them. As much I love them, I sometimes think that they look down on me in certain areas. Haha naturally when you are as big me many people think you don't meet certain qualities. Hmm haven't really tried climbing Mt Kinabalu before though, yet to do it...someday.....

Another reason could have been my stress level. I'm a bad person with stress. I never deal with it properly (unfortunately in my home, I seemed to be the only one who handles it well). As you guys know, I have a very very very XX 10000000000 demanding boss....although she is a great boss but haha sometimes she can really drive me up the wall. A few times already I have broken down because of her.

Hmm but wat my junior said tat day made me think.. GROW UP!!!! I need to GROW UP......it's time that I stop whining and move on. If people don't like the way I am, screw them! If people think I'm like that, then so be it! If people don't care about me, I still care for them! It's a tough world out there but I guess we can only survive if we learn to GROW UP

I AM

The last few days, there were so many words like racism, sexism, sizeism (fat). My question, are we not racist? not sexist? not sizeist? the things we do, we say and we react shows all that. My personal believe that there is no one who is not racist, not sexist and sizeist. We make judgement whether we like it or not.............the song from Avenue Q speaks a lot and would like to share with you guys.

Everyone's A Little Racist (Avenue Q)

Princeton: Say, Kate, can I ask you a question?
Kate Monster: Sure!
Princeton: Well, you know Trekkie Monster upstairs?
Kate Monster: Uh huh.
Princeton: Well, he's Trekkie Monster, and you're Kate Monster.
Kate Monster: Right.
Princeton: You're both Monsters.
Kate Monster: Yeah.
Princeton: Are you two related?
Kate Monster: What?! Princeton, I'm surprised at you! I find that racist!
Princeton: Oh, well, I'm sorry! I was just asking!
Kate Monster: Well, it's a touchy subject. No, not all Monsters are related. What are you trying say, huh? That we all look the same to you? Huh, huh, huh?
Princeton: No, no, no, not at all. I'm sorry, I guess that was a little racist.
Kate Monster: I should say so. You should be much more careful when you're talking about thesensitive subject of race.
Princeton: Well, look who's talking!
Kate Monster: What do you mean?
Princeton: What about that special Monster School you told me about?
Kate Monster: What about it?
Princeton: Could someone like me go there?
Kate Monster: No, we don't want people like you-
Princeton: You see?!
You're a little bit racist.
Kate Monster:Well, you're a little bit too.
Princeton:I guess we're both a little bit racist.
Kate Monster:Admitting it is not an easy thing to do...
Princeton:But I guess it's true.
Kate Monster:Between me and you, I think
Both:Everyone's a little bit racistSometimes.Doesn't mean we go Around committing hate crimes.Look around and you will findNo one's really color blind.Maybe it's a factWe all should faceEveryone makes judgmentsBased on race.
Princeton:Now not big judgments, like who to hire or who to buy a newspaper from -
Kate Monster:No!
Princeton:No, just little judgments like thinking that Mexican busboys should learn to speak goddamn English!
Kate Monster:Right!
Both:Everyone's a little bit racistToday.So, everyone's a little bit racistOkay!Ethinic jokes might be uncouth,But you laugh becauseThey're based on truth.Don't take them as Personal attacks.Everyone enjoys them - So relax!
Princeton:All right, stop me if you've heard this one.
Kate Monster:Okay!
Princeton:There's a plan going down and there's only one paracute. And there's a rabbi, a priest...
Kate Monster:And a black guy!
Gary Coleman:Whatchoo talkin' 'bout Kate?
Kate Monster:Uh...
Gary Coleman:You were telling a black joke!
Princeton:Well, sure, Gary, but lots of people tell black jokes.
Gary Coleman:I don't.
Princeton:Well, of course you don't - you're black! But I bet you tell Polack jokes, right?
Gary Coleman:Well, sure I do. Those stupid Polacks!
Princeton:Now, don't you think that's a little racist?
Gary Coleman:Well, damn, I guess you're right.
Kate Monster:You're a little bit racist.
Gary Coleman:Well, you're a little bit too.
Princeton:We're all a little bit racist.
Gary Coleman:I think that I wouldHave to agree with you.
Princeton/Kate Monster:We're glad you do.
Gary Coleman:It's sad but true!Everyone's a little bit racist -
All right!
Kate Monster:All right!
Princeton:All right!
Gary Coleman:All right!Bigotry has never beenExclusively white
All:If we all could just admitThat we are racist a little bit,Even though we all knowThat it's wrong,Maybe it would help usGet along.
Princeton:Oh, Christ do I feel good.
Gary Coleman:Now there was a fine upstanding black man!
Princeton:Who?
Gary Coleman:Jesus Christ.
Kate Monster:But, Gary, Jesus was white.
Gary Coleman:No, Jesus was black.
Kate Monster:No, Jesus was white.
Gary Coleman:No, I'm pretty sure that Jesus was black-
Princeton:Guys, guys...Jesus was Jewish!
Brian:Hey guys, what are you laughing about?
Gary Coleman:Racism!
Brian:Cool.
Christmas Eve:BRIAN! Come back here! You take out lecycuraburs!
Princeton:What's that mean?
Brian:Um, recyclables. Hey, don't laugh at her! How many languages do you speak?
Kate Monster:Oh, come off it, Brian!Everyone's a little bit racist.
Brian:I'm not!
Princeton:Oh no?
Brian:Nope!
How many Oriental wivesHave you got?
Christmas Eve:What? Brian!
Princeton:Brian, buddy, where you been?The term is Asian-American!
Christmas Eve:I know you are noIntending to beBut calling me Oriental - Offensive to me!
Brian:I'm sorry, honey, I love you.
Christmas Eve:And I love you.
Brian: But you're racist, too.
Christmas Eve:Yes, I know.The Jews have allThe moneyAnd the whites have allThe power.And I'm always in taxi-cabWith driver who no shower!
Princeton:Me too!
Kate Monster:Me too!
Gary Coleman:I can't even get a taxi!
All:Everyone's a little bit racistIt's true.But everyone is just aboutAs racist as you!If we all could just admitThat we are racist a little bit,And everyone stopped beingSo PCMaybe we could live in - Harmony!
Christmas Eve:Evlyone's a ritter bit lacist!

;)

BIRTHDAY WEEK

Yup my birthday came and went as any other yr. But I must say a quick shout out to all who sms-ed, faced-book, friendster-ed me with messages, THANK YOU. Also a great thank you to all who gave me presents...really appreciate it.

My birthday week started a week earlier. Kah Hon, suddenly messaged me on MSN a week before my birthday. Haha so sweet lor. Here are a few presents I got this year.

1) T-shirt: Mum bought me a t shirt with the words 'As for me and my house, we'll serve the Lord!'. The writings were all hand made by my mum's friend. It serves as a reminder to me that no matter where I go or where I'll be, I'll continue to serve the Lord.

2) Tennis shirt: Dear bought me this. Was actually thinking of getting one but never got around to survey. Now no need. hahaha Adidas you know!!! Thanks dear muacks...

3) 3D puzzle: Han Chen bought me a puzzle of the earth. Seems to be a popular hobby in Taiwan. I've yet to start it but I think will do it to release stress.

4) Body Glove Pencil Box: My best friend Tai Lo and Mei Meei bought me an all so nice pencil box from my fav brand. I love Body Glove's design so thanks TL and MM.

5) Dinner and Karaoke session: Tuesday had dinner with my course mates. Went to one of my fav restaurant for dinner. After that, a few of us decided to sing the night away literally. Karaoke nite was so great :)

6) Dinner at Pizza Hut: Well technically I paid for this, but was with my fav people in CF. Jason (cousin), Derrick (bro), Yan Wai, Simon and Jinny. Thank you guys for being such wonderful juniors. Can't believe I'm labeled as Final Yr like you guys :P

7) Surprise supper at Riyas: After CF, was treated to a melted ice cream cake by the CF. Thanks guys. I love the card that they made for me. 2 chicky's standing there haha.

8) Fridays: Dear took me to Fridays on a Saturday haha. The food there is so cool. Will take my parents there one day.

9) 2 movies in a weekend: Haha watched 2 movies....Dark Knight and also Mummy. Two contrasting movies. One so depressing, one so comedic. you guess which is which :P

Anyway my 1/4 of a century birthday was great. Thanks guys.........

THINGS....

... I Have Heard

"If God can be proven by theories, equations and formuli then there is no reason to believe in Him, all He wants is your FAITH.." Grace, CPR

"What do you call a female transformer?.........Transistor" Joshua Prakash, CF Meeting

...I Have Seen

"Beer is cheaper than petrol now.....Drink Don't Drive" Eric, E-mail

"Ben lost weight....he is so thin and he wants to be cekap now!" Mum, SMS

Hell Boy.......not too bad a movie. Better than the first one.

...I Have Felt

Here I want to wish my condolence to Zhing Hui on the loss of her mother. People if you have met her, you would know that her spirit is so strong. She really shows the example of what Honouring Thy Parents means.



P.S. Sorry for not updating. :P

BIBLE NEST

About a few days ago, as I was leaving for church, I opened my bible and urgh, ants built a nest in my bible. First of all it took just one night cause the night before I was reading it and the next day, the nest was built. It was disgusting and it took quite a while to actually destroyed it. Was really trying real hard not to get bitten but of course kena also la. Hmm I was looking at this situation as a Christian, how easy sin can creep into our lives. We can ask God to forgive us today and by the next day we are back to sinning. And each time we sin, God gets 'bitten' by it. We hurt Him. But yet we still do it.

Anyway in other news, was feeling a bit unappreciated the last few days. I just feel as if I was a ball to kick at. Left, right, left, right and when people got their goal, they just kick you to another side. I'm so sick of the ignorance and also the silent treatment I keep getting.....................................................................

PHASES

Hey gang, sorry for not blogging soo long. Was having some bloggers block (but not tat I type out great posts haha). I have been blog hopping the last few days and I feel so small in the blogging world. I'm the type of person who is very simple so my blogs are simple and it's just an avenue of output and also to share some things that touched me, like what happened on Sunday.

We all grow up somehow. Sunday was a day I got to see my brother grow up. Ben was admitted to UKM in Bangi and it was kinda weird to see my little brother going to university. I have always viewed him as still the small boy that I love so much. Well he is literally no more small but he's still my brother. To see him entering his university, I'm proud to have a brother like him. Although now we are even further apart but distance make the heart grow fonder right?

Phases....we live through it, we face it everyday. Whether it is a short or long phase, we still need to face it with open hearts and minds. A lot of people have problems with moving through phases. I'm one of them. I'm a person who likes regularity and familiarity (for someone who is doing research where being spontaneous is important). I remembered my first week in university, I was so not accustomed to the whole uni life thing, that after 1 day I wanted to leave USM. But one thing about phases are that we get through it in differenct pace. I'm now on my 6th yr in USM and loving every second of it.

The Le Chatelier prinsip says in any changes in a reaction, the reaction will try to find a balance. I guess that's how we should live our lives. With balance. And if there are any changes to our system, find the balance of it............

In other news, I finally paid the order fee for my car. Another new phase =)

15th OF JUNE

I can't believe it's been 1 year. Yes I've crossed my 5th year here in USM KKj. Today onwards, I'm starting my 6th year. Hmm........1 year so fast. Cannot really believe that

A year ago, I decided to make the biggest decision of staying back another few years for my masters. I still remember it was Friday that my dad took my back here. It was almost like being in first year. He helped me cleaned up before leaving and then asked whether I want to follow him back. I said no. After meeting my supervisor, it was only 3 pm. And I was feeling lonely all the sudden. So I decided to follow a friend back to Ipoh.

A year ago, I was kicked out of hostel and forced to live outside. For a while it was enjoyable, but I missed hostel life. Thank God after 3 months, I was able to move back into hostel and still enjoying every moment of it.

A year ago, I really had no clue what my research is about. I can still remember the tonnes of journal I had to read and the tonnes of websites I had to digest before moving on. The many proposals, corrections and craziness in preparing myself. Now I'm half way done, and I've learnt so much.

A year ago, I cannot imagine where my funds would come. Although Uncle Frank gave me my initial start, but that money won't last me until I finished. Praise God for his faithfulness, I got a scholarship from USM and currently just doing my work and fulfilling their needs as a GA.

A year ago, I was all ready to become an advisor to the CF. I've learnt so much from being a listener. But it was hard, I tend to give my views and comments as a senior. Learning to let go and learning to just listen. Give advices where needed.

So much has happened......and I really thank God for it all

MAY

Hmm a lot of people were asking me have I stopped blogging. Haha truth be told was super busy with work so no time to really pen down some events. Although I want to but in then also lazy la. Anyway, here's a little updates from me.........

I named my month of May as God is the God of faithfulness admist of troubles. To tell you the truth, May was not a good month at all. A lot of things happened during this month that left me in the dark sometimes and sometimes left me uncertain.

But I believe that God was in control of things. Last Sunday I played piano for service after a long absence from church. Auntie Emily sang one song that really touched my heart and would like to share with you guys.

You Are Faithful
Lord of all the earth
How You care for me
You have made me
You will save and carry me always

You are faithful
You are faithful
You are faithful
Your joy is my strength

Lord you are my God
I rely on You
I put my hope in things not seen
Your promises all true

Always you're with me
Your hand will lift me
My trust is in your hands

Somethings that have happened in snap shots:

Happy: 1) Attended Wan's wedding, congrats girl!
2) Had a pork party where HC cooked. Seriously everything was pork pork pork
3) My supervisor gave a very good review on my progress report
4) Had a good week with dear in Ipoh

Sad: 1) My supervisor resigned as deputy dean so it will be harder for me to get things
approved. But happy for her cause she is not in good of health
2) Lost 2 friendship :(
3) Was having stress when writing my journal

Prayer need: 1) My fellowship. Hopefuly can extend it

I pray that the month of June would be more fruitful and I hope to update and blog more.

Cheers

WHO AM I

Last Sunday I was at dear's church. Pastor Teng Huat shared something very meaningful although it came from a very simple passage. He spoke on roles. What roles do we play?

Notice that Paul always start with to the saints in __________. Hmm I wonder whether Paul will write to the saints in Parit Buntar. Am I a saint? Do I work for the good of his Kingdom here in Parit Buntar?

Another famous quote that he likes to write is from the Servant (Slave) of God. Wow!!! Slave. Meaning you can't answer back to God. If we are really the servants of God, we need to just follow orders no matter how ridiculous it is.

So God wants us to be both A Saint and A Servant

Who Am I then?

ANGEL IN DISGUISE

I woke up this morning feeling kind of blue
and I stumbled out of bedand dragged my feet across the room
Right outside my front door was a rose
and a note that said 'Somebody Loves You'

But out on the street it starts to pour
and before I get soaking wet,
A total stranger runs to give me
the jacket off his back
I turn around to thank him
But he waves me with a smile
I can hardly believe my eyes
He puts on a halo and starts to fly

Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look at paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise

I met a good friend for lunch
and we had a delicious meal
But I forgot to bring my wallet
I felt like an imbecile
But she was sweet,
she gave me a treat
and bought me a chicken sandwich
To take home for tea

But out on the street with nothing to eat
A man and his shopping cart go
Travelling to places,
Collecting social graces
I give him my sandwich
and we chatter for a while
I see a rainbow wash over his eyes
He gives me his halo and I start to fly

Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for paradise
You could be next to an angel in disguise

Don't try to hide away from me
I know you're by my side

Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise

Everyday can be legendary
Every minute, an endless surprise
You could be the next angel in disguise
I woke up this morning
Feeling kind of new...

This song is written and sung by Corrinne May. Was introduced to her by Papa Bear a few years back and this song speaks a lot to me. It reminds me that we need to be an angel in disguise. We are all God's agent on earth. The bible says we need to do everything with love. And to be an Angel we need to have that love to help others.

ANOTHER SEMESTER

Wow another semester have come and gone. Well not for me at least. I'll still be in campus. But it will be so different this time around. Dear has finally graduated from USM and I'm so proud of her. She finally can breathe easily. Derrick is going to be gone for another 2 months, so I won't get to see him only can call :( The whole campus is going to be empty and I'll be alone once again. Oh well, that's the life of a master student.

But all not so bad. May will be a busy month for me. First week of May will be going to Melaka for Southern Convention and then the second week will be going Singapore with dear for about 4 days. After that I'll be at her place until Wesak Day and then back to campus. The last week of May I will be going to Camerons for a church camp where I'm helping out as a Children's Church teacher. So that's whole of May.

The only month where I'll be really 100% in campus will be June. Hmm it will be different this year cause last year I was really alone nobody in campus but this year at least got Tai Lo and the gang to teman me. So I don't think I'll be that sad.

Oh well...life goes on

LIVE IN JOY

Was in Penang on Sunday and visited a CF member's mum who was diagnosed with brain cancer. She is now admitted to the Lotus Hospice Centre, a Buddhist centre. When I was there, I came across a poster which realy struck me. Not only was this the sayings of Buddha but it is so biblical. I would like to share it with you guys.

Live In Joy

Live in Joy, In Love
Even Among Those Who Hate

Live in Joy, In Heath
Even Among The Afflicted

Live in Joy, In Peace
Even Among the Troubled

Look Within, Be Still
Free From Fear and Attachment
Know the Sweet Joy
Of Living in The Way

Another things I must mention was that how proud I was with Dear. She helped to pray for our friend's mum and also shared the gospel. Now we just need to continue to pray for her.