WHO CAN UND?

A bit tired of hearing ppl's problem. But then again in a dilemma. I always want to help people out. I think I help people out too much. But nobody wants to listen to me. I have been called emo, thinking too much. However, any of them know how I feel about certain things.

 

SOMETIMES

Sometimes I wish things were much simpler. No need to think so much, no need to try too hard.

IT TAKES TWO

It takes two to play a see-saw
It takes two to play catch
It takes two to play police and thief
It takes two to become a match
It takes two to agree
It takes two to disagree
It takes two to fight
It takes two to reconcile
It takes two to start a relationship
It takes two to build a relationship
It takes two to break a relationship

Praise and Worship Songs with Lyrics- I Simply Live for You

As I was driving home from Rawang, this song came up. And usually the CD will jerk and I will usually press the switch button. However, this time the song was smooth. As I was singing it, the song was so meaningful. I forgot that God is simply wonderful. I just have to simply for Him

SOME THINGS TO PONDER

Heylo, haha I lied...supposed to blog every month. Sorry la guys have been lazy to open up blogger but then since got ppl complain about being not updated so I should try lor..

During these two months I was constantly challenged by God. The many tribulations and also trials to go through each day has indeed shaped on how I react to people. Take for example, I have a colleague, let's call her C. I met C when I did my training at my current workplace. At that time, I do not really know her or how she operate with people cause I never really interacted with her. When I started my work here, I got to know her a little bit better. And boy oh boy she is hard to deal with. She's the sought of person who is very calculative and a wonderful tai chi master. Day in and day out I get angry at her for the things she does and say. Until one day it hit me, we are asked to be a light and salt into the world but if I cannot love her as she is, how can I love others. I remember one day during lunch, she kept asking me about Christianity and I thought to myself, is this a good time to share about Christ? So I shared her the Purpose Driven Life book which she faithfully finished and said it was the best book she ever read and now attending church nearby. Now I don't know but I still get angry at how she does things at work but I'm praying to God that she would one day by changed. So how do we react with people we don't like? Do we continue to shun them or do we try to understand them? Do we reach out to them? Let's think about it.....

In other news...I am planning a coup to leave this place soon. Haha Well pray with me and I hope God will bring me good news soon :)

WHAT HAS HAPPENED

Hello everybody....yes CY the blog is mati-mati ikan la.......but hahaha sorry folks been busy and more over my blog has been a place for me to rant a lot...

Can't believe so much has happened within a month:

1) I made a complete fool of myself when I told somebody that I should not have to.

2) I became extremely jealous of the people closest to me.

3) I was test of my patience.

4) My laptop decided to give way and all my beloved keepsakes are now gone.

5) I've still yet to able to cry over so many things.

Haha see more rants..I'll try to blog more okay people

For Good

Have been very emo lately....and was listening to some songs and I stumbled upon this song from the musical Wicked..It's called For Good and I dedicate this song for all those who were in my life and have left :)

For Good

I've heard it said

That people come into our lives for a reason

Bringing something we must learn

And we are led

To those who help us most to grow

If we let them

And we help them in return

Well, I don't know if I believe that's true

But I know I'm who I am today

Because I knew you...

Like a comet pulled from orbit

As it passes a sun

Like a stream that meets a boulder

Halfway through the wood

Who can say if I've been changed for the better?

But because I knew you

I have been changed for good

It well may be

That we will never meet again

In this lifetime

So let me say before we part

So much of me

Is made of what I learned from you

You'll be with me

Like a handprint on my heart

And now whatever way our stories end

I know you have re-written mine

By being my friend...

Like a ship blown from its mooring

By a wind off the sea

Like a seed dropped by a skybird

In a distant wood

Who can say if I've been changed for the better?

But because I knew you

And just to clear the air

I ask forgiveness

For the things I've done you blame me for

But then, I guess we know

There's blame to share

And none of it seems to matter anymore

Who can say if I've been

Changed for the better?

I do believe I have been

Changed for the better

Because I knew you...

I have been changed for good...

WHY? HOW?

Hey everyone,

My goal now is to blog at least once a month haha and hopefully able to stick to it more often. Well decided to blog today cause well don't just feel well inside. Yesterday in the morning I got a message from a close friend who told me that he is with someone now. I'm real happy for him cause I know it was a struggle for him. So M really happy for you, may you continue to walk this nice path soundly.

Of course I didn't think of it tat much until of course came at nite. Now you all know kkb is a very small town and well can get lonely sometimes. And the fact that someone else told me that they are together (well the guy told me because I asked after so many news about them). I'm extremely happy cause both of them are people I care about. So I thought it was a great affair..den panic button set in....SHIT...then where am I now? And I couldn't sleep the whole nite thinking (yes a big flaw in me....think too much).

To add salt to the wound, another close friend of mine just told me he is with someone now too....OMG.........in 2 days.....man....................

Now I'm real happy for them la........cause I know they are goign to be good boy friends and girl friends to their partners....I think I just panic........1) Things are going to be different (I may not be in the top of food chain...whic is okay) 2) It does make me wonder....where am I now?

SIGH...EMO DAY

COMMUNICATION

Hey guys,

I know I know I lied.......supposed to blog often but sorry la..........a lot of thing got in the way. Just to let you know I'm already an official employee of GAMUDA by February and by today I have already passed my 7 months mark. Kinda fast if you ask me.....before you know it, I would have finished my 1st year here.

Anyway was back in SCF (my church) for a meeting last nite. Haha kinda cool to call it the Summit Meeting (not because it's near Summit Hotel). Summit meeting is a meeting for all leaders of the church in whatever area you are serving in and decided I needed to at least know the bigger leaders of the church.

The elder of the church spoke about communication during sharing. I think communcation is so important. They are two types of wrong communication:

1) Not sharing to the person
2) Sharing to the person

Kinda paradox don't you think but hey most things are haha........Why do I say that?

1) Not sharing to the person
When we keep things to ourselves and say never mind they'll understand, it will continue to eat your heart out and slowly but surely will one day burst into flames.

2) Sharing to the person
Must be tactful in sharing...share with love.....don't suddenly point fingers.....As Bro Lai Yit says...it's not about reasoning, it's about purpose. We need to have good purpose in telling people about their weaknesses and your problems.

One thing that I've learned all these years is being truthful. And that's what I tell my friends..if you don't like my attitude please tell me.......I'm not superman, I cannot read your minds. Up till today I have made my share of blunders with people (some who still hates me....and can act as if I'm not there) but I have learn also to move on and not be obssesed with them hating me. I can only do so much to help them realise it's a mistake but if they don't wanna forgive me then not my problem.

Communication is very important in any organization. My boss always reminds us (all the engineers) to be truthful to him. I have always look up to him for being so patient and also affirming to people. I think the working world needs more people like him. Telling him about my problems is such an ease and even telling him about your weaknesses helps him to try to adapt to my working style and also help me to realise I need to brush up on that weakness.

2010

Heylo everyone,

Finally got time to actually blog again...haha my cousin already ranting on me to update. Well to start things off. Happy new year (yes I know it's late) but at least I still can wish u guys.

Anyway....to kick start the blog.....I've decided to share about my 2010 resolutions and goal..clap clap. Yes I always name my year (a habit I picked up from attending too many FES camps) so that it helps me to focus. Like 2009 was the year of Empowerment. To help me to realise to empower others as other people empower me.

2010 is drum roll....................the Year of New Mountains..........wah so vague. Well not really if you really think about it. I am in New Territory, a New Church, definitely a New Life and also New Relationships.

New Territory - My new home, my new working place........Rasa....

New Church - Subang Christian Fellowship, so much to learn and do

New Life - I'm working now...stresses are different....and of course being single

New Relationships - New friends in church, new friends at work.

As I was trekking with some friends last weekend, I was also reflecting on the journey. It wasn't easy as there were some obstacles but with friends help and also cheering, could reach the end zone (Miley Cyrus The Climb plays at the background - It's still a cool song, I don't care what PY said). Of course my new adventure will be hard but I know with God's help and with friends around I'll be able to pull myself up. Haha after the trek, when reaching home, my muscle ache badly and reminded me that it times of need and dryness, just rest....there's nothign more to do.....

So my friends here's to great 2010..and to many more posts (I hope).......

A DECADE LOOKBACK

Everyone Happy New Year!!! It's already 2010 gosh how time flew. I've just passed my 5 months mark in Gamuda Water and beginning to feel the motion of work already. I'm sorry I was unable to update my blog.....was seriously tied down with lots of audit work and also camps (you know my usual Decembers haha). Anyway was told off by some of my readers that they want me to update so here I am finally able to breathe for a moment before my gear shifts in again. I have been reading a lot of blogs and articles lately, and most of them talked about looking back into the past decade to reflect on it. Pastor Jazz actually sent me an email this morning stating that we need to look at our past to help us look ahead in the future. So because of that (and because I have time) will list down past events from 2000 - 2009 that really shaped me and moulded me (Imagine fading and dream music)

2000
SPM year....gosh that was 10 years ago? I still remembered not doing too well for my trials cause I was still busy with the school band at that time. But thank God I manage to score during the real exams. Haha funny moment was when Ho Yi (my bestest best friend) fell asleep during the English paper. He was snoring...sorry Ho Yi haha. Another memorable event was right after SPM, a day after actually, I was admitted to the hospital and tada my appendix needed to come out. I was in the hospital for about 1 week because my appendix rupture. Haha but that didn't stop me from going for youth camp which turned out to be quite traumatic because I had to had my stitches removed due to infection. I know ouch!!!

2001
The start of form 6. Was in the best class ever....go LSS3!! The only class that has a maths teacher who would ask you to sleep if you found his class boring (culprit number 1 here..lol). Was part of the school play and realised my potential in singing, acting, dancing and directing (would you believe that?). The other big thing that happened was when I was elected as deputy head prefect by the school. A surprising post to get but it helped me to shape who I am today. Had my heart broken because got rejected (my first rejection..wakaka) and of course stayed friends with her until now. Another big event that year was my first exposure to the whole La Sallian family. Was asked to become the Head of delegate for SMI to attend the 11th Nationals LaSallian Leaders' Convention. Something that I have devoted my life to for the last 9 years and maybe for more years to come. Oh yes and I finally passed my piano exams with flying colours.....of course with the help of my super strict teacher lol.

2002
A year to remember. STPM!!! The most excruitating and sleepless nights exam that anyone could face. I remembered when I took the exams, I couldn't sleep and by the final few papers I got sick and really sick until couldn't really do the paper. I got pretty good grades in the end. Really thank God for His grace on that matter. At home, things were not looking too good. I had my fair shares of arguments with my dad and almost we've had the worst falling out. In December 2002, Pastor Jazz took me out from my home and off I went to KL to find a job and I thank her for that because my dad and I had time to be away from each other and we began to miss each other's presence and until now our relationship is solid. I worked as an administrator for her church and worked as a part time salesman for Fajar. Although I was there for 4 months right until April 2003, I felt it was like 4 years cause I've learned so much from Pastor and her Uncle Tom. Lessons which still affect my daily decisions.

Actually this whole year I devoted it to relationships. By that time, I've realised that there were fake friends and true friends. Fake friends are those who wants things from you but end up ditching you after they have achieved their goal. True friends are those who sticks with you till the end. I also had my first falling out with a friend and up till now, he refuses to speak to me although I have had tried my best to apologize and also mend things. I've also came to learn about myself, how bossy I can get and how sometimes I say the wrong things to people.

2003
USM USM!! that's right, I've started university and where I've met my new 'family'....my CF :) I can still remember the many seniors who have made so much impact in my life. Christina, Kah Ling, Jonathan, Felix, Siou Lian, Loon Choong and many more. It was also the year, I fell into depression and also had bad spiritual attacks. But it was that same year, that God spoke to me through different individuals and confirmed that He has a purpose for me in USM KKj. 2003 also gave me a big brother....Jonathan Chai who still is my big brother. He really took care of me and also gave me the spiritual teaching that has shaped my life. This same year I met another person who has become another of my best friend in university. Thiam Leng aka Tai Lo!! I still remember how we met, on a car travelling to a senior's house for orientation and he became my translator for the whole night. From that day onwards, we were buddies and of course who can forget the 3rd party in our relationship, Chau Lan. Both of them were my best buds during my undergraduate years and we still are best buds. Miss you guys a lot!!

This same year brought me to another 'family'. My business family. GAMUDA! I thank God that He gave me a scholarship so that my parents won't need to worry about my financial needs in uni.

Another highlight of the year was when I met Kenny aka Papa Bear. Kenny was and still is my inspiration. It's so hard to find people who sacrifice their time and effort doing the things they love. I'm grateful and thankful that I'm able to meet him and also open my eyes to so many possibilities in life and of course introducing me to the Singapore gang which I will talk later.

2004
Worked in La Salle Centre for about 2 months during my semester break. Then gave myself a treat to go Singapore. This was the same year I fell in love with the tiny island. People still ask me if you love it so much go work there but you see I don't want to associate work with Singapore. It is still my retreat place, my parmenie, my rest.

A big highlight of the year was chosen to represent Malaysia in Hong Kong for the Asia Pacific LaSallian Youth Congress. And there I met Paolo aka Pao Pao, Wei Yang aka Yang Yang and Eddy aka Eddy chai. 3 of my buddies in Singapore who still are. In Hong Kong also got to strengthen my relationships with some fellow Malaysian delegates, Richard, Yee Ling and also Vinesh. After the whole Congress, I knew that my life in the LaSallian family will not stop and had fueled even more passion for me to be active in the family.

2005
By then Jonathan had left USM and before he left he told me to find a younger brother to take care and may the tradition continue. So I made 2005 a mission for me to find a younger brother. Of course things were not easy cause I couldn't find someone whom I can click very well and was down because I couldn't fulfill Jon's mission for me. Haha but don't be sad cause 2006 did bring someone but will share on that later.

2005 was also the year my life took a drastic turn. I went to Camp Cameron 2005 where God spoke to me very clearly about His plans for me. I was at that time feeling stagnant with my relationship with Him and found it strange that so much so I thought I am alone without God. But God gave me a word..STOP AARON you're moving too fast!! Profound words right? Here is also where I've met my greatest grandparents, Kim Cheng and Joshua Johnson. Not forgetting my crazy uncle, Chun Chung. The 3 of them helped me through my decisions in life and also up till now, I still value their inputs and sharings. Of course my CC family, Go NERITON, Papa Gerry, Mama Chor Yan, Da Jie, Er Jie Leena, Flo Mui, Ah Kong, Siew Fong Mui, Lin Da Mui, Ann Mui, Chai Ying Mui and of course Ah Boy Cheffrost. 3 weeks for us was like an eternity as we became so close as a family.

My yearly visits to Singapore also led me to find a new friend. Xian Yi aka XY! Funny thing we've only chat for 2 days and we clicked so fast. Up till today he is still my abang!! And I'm glad to have met him

2006
*phew* getting long dee haha. 2006 was a year of many many decisions and of course many God given people. First of all was the brother I talked about. This fella was already a junior in my CF however, I never got to talk to him cause he was very very quiet. Actually he said the same thing about me, thought I talk to much -_- However it took a camp to really open our eyes and hearts to each other. And therefore I became a big brother finally to my small brother Derrick. It was indeed hard at first because we were both so different. We like different things and yet when we get together, we can't stop talking. I believe that God was in control and I thank God for sending him into my life. We are still brothers and even closer than before. Of course that doesn't mean I don't love my own brother...I love Ben even more than before.

Of course 2006 was the year I got hitched. Yup I finally was in a serious relationship. Sui Ying and myself got together in October 2006. Although we are no more together, I still thank God for bringing her into my life and appreciate the times that we'd shared over the span of 3 years together.

2007
We are getting closer to 2009. hahaha bear with me ya! I graduated from USM...phew after 4 years of studying was already ready to move into the working world. But I felt something was not so right. I knew that God was not ready to let me go in USM. So I prayed and guessed what, doors opened and I was granted by GAMUDA and also USM to continue my studies. Haha another 2 years. That's when my Master life began. I stayed back and also became the adviser for the CF and a grad helper for FES. If talk about Masters, sure must talk about my supervisor, Dr. Mashitah aka Kak Ita. She is not only a good supervisor but a caring one too. Yes she does makes all her students crazy at times but it was for our own good.

Was also blessed cause was able to help FES in Camp Cameron 2007. I became an uncle to a group of crazy students and that's when I also had 2 more mentors. My mama, Annette and my rabbi, Swee Kit. Both have taught me about student work and also helped me journeyed through my walk with God.

2007 also a year I met the cutest girl ever who became my little sis aka lil sis aka Hooi Kheng aka HK. I met HK when I got an sms from Bro Mugan asking me to look for this young Christian who came to USM KKj. When I first met her, she was so shy but her sharing about her life and her faith marvelled me. I started seeing potential in her and I greatly challenged her to better herself spiritually. Now she is the CF president (the 1st female for USM KKj) and I'm so proud at how she has become so fired up for the Lord. Oh ya congrats on your baptism lil sis. Big bro is proud of you!

This year also I attended another APLYC. But this time I was there as part of the organising team. Thanks to Kenny who brought me and sponsored me to Singapore again. Speaking of Singapore this year was also significant cause I got to watch my favourite musical, Phatom of the Opera. Free!!! That was the best thanks Kenny again for the free tickets.

2008
2008 we had the Olympics and also the 12th General Election where I first voted. Who I voted for? shhh I won't tell haha. 2008 was also the year I met another interesting fella. Haha Edmond Teo. A very very complicated but caring kid. I'm glad I also made him an honourable small brother. We share the same thoughts, same interests and of course the same type of music.

One record for 2008 was the fact I went to Singapore 3 times haha....the most since I've started going there. The first time was with Derrick, second was with Ben and third was with Sui Ying to celebrate Christmas.

2009
Finally.....hahaha 2009. Wow where do I begin. Maybe I start with my Masters. I finally finished it and now still waiting for my results hopefully will come out soon. I also won 2 medals for my research and was also offered 3 jobs. I count it as God's blessing to be able to finish my Masters and the many awards that came along.

I also got a job with Gamuda Water and met 2 important people here. One is my boss, Wakil and the other one is our HR assistant, Ms Tan. Both of them helped me a lot when I first started out here in Rasa. OH yes and I have my own aparment. Mine all mine!! All 3 rooms sigh!! Well if anyone is interested in joining me come come. haha. But staying alone has helped me be independent. I can cook now and I do my own laundry so haha my mum says good training to become a good house husband.

Of course the biggest thing that happened this year was that me and Sui Ying parted ways. Hmm was not an easy decision to make but I guess we needed the space to explore our paths. I pray that God will keep us as friends but hard I guess. Sigh!!

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Oh well it's already 10 years. I'm already looking forward for 2010. As someone put it...it's going to be an adventure year for me, which I think is true. I named my year 2010 as the year of mountains as I know got a lot of new things to climb and try. So pray with me and I'll pray that 2010 and the next decade to come to be a decade of joy.

Till next post