WHY? HOW?

Hey everyone,

My goal now is to blog at least once a month haha and hopefully able to stick to it more often. Well decided to blog today cause well don't just feel well inside. Yesterday in the morning I got a message from a close friend who told me that he is with someone now. I'm real happy for him cause I know it was a struggle for him. So M really happy for you, may you continue to walk this nice path soundly.

Of course I didn't think of it tat much until of course came at nite. Now you all know kkb is a very small town and well can get lonely sometimes. And the fact that someone else told me that they are together (well the guy told me because I asked after so many news about them). I'm extremely happy cause both of them are people I care about. So I thought it was a great affair..den panic button set in....SHIT...then where am I now? And I couldn't sleep the whole nite thinking (yes a big flaw in me....think too much).

To add salt to the wound, another close friend of mine just told me he is with someone now too....OMG.........in 2 days.....man....................

Now I'm real happy for them la........cause I know they are goign to be good boy friends and girl friends to their partners....I think I just panic........1) Things are going to be different (I may not be in the top of food chain...whic is okay) 2) It does make me wonder....where am I now?

SIGH...EMO DAY