HAPPY BIRTHDAY

Yes It's my birthday in 23 hours. Maybe it's time to just think a while. Another year has passed, another year of trials and joys. Have I grown?

Physically, yes...hahaha I think my waist have grown an inch. Mentally, yes.....I'm learning about myself and my struggles and how to deal with them. Emotionally, hmm a bit hard to see whether I have grown. The struggles I have emotionally has taken a toll on my view of life. Hmm...I think my spiritual life have also dwindled abit. The fact that I don't read the bible daily anymore.............

24 is such a weird number to me. It's double. 4 is the double of 2. 24 is twice the 12 year chinese cycle. Everything is doubled. I think the sense that I'm actualy getting older is getting to me. hm....need to really reflect about my life thus far...........


Happy Birthday to me!

INSIDE OUT

Tough week this week


From The Inside Out
by Hillsong United
album: United We Stand (2006)

A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out

SPENT A LITTLE MORE TIME ON YOU

Would like to share a song with you. It is a song by N Sync.

Can this be true?
Tell me, can this be real?
How can I put into words what I feel?
My life was completeI thought I was whole
Why do I feel like I'm losing control?
I never thought that love could feel like this
and you've changed my world with just one kiss.
How can it be that right here with methere's an angel?
It's a miracle...

Your love is like a river
Peaceful and deep
Your soul is like a secret
That I never could keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that it's true
God must have spent...
A little more time
On you...

In all of creation
All things great and small
You are the one that surpasses them all
More precious than
Any diamond or pearl
They broke the mold
When you came in this world
And I'm trying hard to figure out
Just how I ever did without
The warmth of your smile
The heart of a child
That's deep inside
Leaves me purified

Your love is like a river
Peaceful and deep
Your soul is like a secret
That I never could keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that it's true
God must have spent...
A little more time
On you...


A song dedicated to my bro (read Derrick).....Haha I know it sounds gay if the song was sung to a guy but just ignore the kiss and the baby haha. Bro thanks for being there for me.

JEALOUSY

Hmm ever wonder how what happens when someone gets jealous?

I was asked this question before and before yesterday I have never felt jealous in my whole life (okay maybe a little). But yesterday I had a full blown jealous fit. The whole feeling is horrible and people think that you are insane or something like that. I won't tell you why I was jealous because it involves a lot of secret keeping. But the feeling I would like to say. It makes you think differently about things. It makes you think that you are not loved. It makes you think that life is over. And of course you can't sleep. Jeaslousy.....no wonder it's one of the deadly sins.

God please help me to control this...........

ALL SETTLED DOWN

Hmm....after much cleaning up and also arranging, I'm done. For those who didn't know, I was asked to shift out of hostel because of the lack of rooms for us masters students. I'm now staying with 3 other coursemates of mine in a small house just outside of USM. I'm actually quite happy with the place and it was a bit exciting moving out. We had so much opening ceremony from the opening door to the arrival of streamyx to the house.

So far everything is fine but the cleaning up of the house was a terrible thing for us housemates. Let me tell you why, the house was in a total mess and so damn dirty. I had to clean the toilet which was growing with moss.

It almost look like this....Not my toilet

I'm sorry to say but the people who lived here before us were bad house tenants. The whole house was filled with cob webs and dun get me started with the fans. The fans were filled with a thick layer of dust. 1 inch. Thank God my nose was not triggered by it.

I'm going to have to get use to living here now..sigh